In 2018 I acknowledged my own self worth. I loved myself more than I had before, the only issue I dealt with was that I still couldn’t put myself first. That started to change halfway through the year. I finally decided I was worth being first in my life. I realized what was actually preventing me from doing the things that I wanted to do was that I would allow other people to dictate how I lived my life. This needed to change. I no longer waited around for other people when it came to me enjoying my own life. I was tired of hearing; tomorrow, soon, next year. These words became trigger words for me. It wasn’t fair that I would miss out on simple enjoyments of life because I put my own time on hold – I was putting my life on hold. Taking action into my own hands was one of the best decisions I made. The more I spent time alone doing the things I enjoyed, the more I realized how much I was am actually worth. The saying, we only get one life to live is something I live by daily. I use it to fight people who try to hold me back, especially when they say, “there is always tomorrow.”
Since I took my life back I have experienced so much that I would not have been able to before. Some of my friends noticed the changes I was making and would even join me on my adventures.
Moving forward in 2019, I want to be the source of my confidence. I will not rely on others to define my worth. I hope to accomplish this by not allowing the negativity of others to impact me. I will continue my journey by surrounding myself with loved ones who respect me the way I respect myself.
